wish i was younger

During my almost 20hr-flight alone back home last jan, I had lots of thinking abt my obsession/plans after graduation insya Allah this october!

Here’s the list:
‚ÄĘstudy french! It sounds so sophisticated ūüėõ
‚ÄĘtake course or AAS degree in st.martin. Its been my obsession for 2years now ūüė¶
‚ÄĘstudy culinary. Cordon blue, of course.

Well I know all these above can be achieved easily by going to europe. But I also have this big dream of residing in us! Hahaha. I wanna get into one of those ivy league uni! I know my dad wud be over the moon.

Banyak maunya yah? Tolong! Help me planning my life! Dan oh one more thing, my parents want me to get into the work field ASAP. Actually, I also wanna get a job as long as it is abroad haha ūüė¶

Aku bingung. So much I wanna do. U r very greedy, inda.

Oh well or shud I not plan anything at all so I wudnt be dissapointed? I despise dissapointment anyway.

Which one better?

I don’t know!!
Well I guess I just have to my best now n let God do the rest


10 Paradoxs

There are 10paradoxs here. And to analyze this, I am going to use all of you guys’ (my friends) posts abt “the most creative ppl”. We’ll see whether they fit this criterion. I dont know whether I am right but this is gonna be interesting! What a creative way to do an analysis right, pak nggermanto? hohoho ūüôā

1. Creative people have a great deal of physical energy, but they‚Äôre also often quiet and at rest. Mm this one goes to…. Denis’ pick! Ludwig Van Beethoven! Mmm.. he lost his hearing that made him go depressed. Very quite and not socializing at that time but i think that was when the creativity process took place. that made him explored more into the music. and making melodies isn’t that easy! it is exhausting therefore he must have great deal of physical energy dont u think huh?

2. Creative people tend to be smart yet naive at the same time. Om Bill Gates you belong here. He’s smart yet he stole other people work. And that stolen act is the one that reflect his naiveness. He’s not dumb that he stole other people work, he’s just way too smart to not. Get it?

3. Creative people combine playfulness and discipline, or responsibility and irresponsibility. Definitely belongs to Marc Jacobs. Kenny nominated him as the most creative person. Well, I think being creative means you have to know the right mixture of the yin and yang. And he does it just right. Look at his ads, they all have this same pattern that makes ppl instantly knows that it’s marc jacobs ad. Very consequent (read: discipline) in the outline of the ad. But at the same time, each of the ad has their own unique feature that show the designer’s playful attitude.

4. Creative people alternate between imagination and fantasy, and a rooted sense of reality. This one goes to JK Rowling. Nominated by both of my friends, Aska and Miu. It is undeniable aite? Most of the fantasy writer is well using too much fantasy. But not her. She wrote books about these three young kids. Two of them are muggles or just simply human and do a very normal human thing. But they also got the chance to see the fantasy of magic world where there are these trolls, flying brooms, talking hats, and many more. And she used her imagination to make the quidditch thingy happened in the book. She just knows how to attract people with the plot.

Oh yeah, I think Stephanie Meyers also fit for this category. She did not write the plain blood sucking vampire but a beautiful vampire with emos. Things that we’ve never read before.

5. Creative people trend to be both extroverted and introverted. Nisa put Coco Chanel as one of the most creative persons in the world. Lets analyze! But well I think it is pretty obvious! Look at her designs! She was the first designers that introduced the modern philosophy of fashion to women. Back then, all the girls wore this huge gigantic dress that it is for hard for them to move in it. But then Coco made a breakthrough with menswear insprired fashion! Girls loved it and it became the new sensation! In the same time, she was also introvert. Because in a way, she managed to still make the girls look womanly, chic, feminime and beautiful. She knew that woman is still a woman afterall.

6. Creative people are humble and proud at the same time. We’ll analyze the famous Mr. Trump. Ica Super picked him. Do u guys watch his show The Apprentice? You could see him being humble and proud at the same time. How could you not? He’s showing off his wealth for god’s sake! yet he teaching people on how to be strong in the business. He knows that the mixture of both can be such an interesting concept of TV show and of course will produce some dollars yo! He just knows what people want. Such a creative thought!

7. Creative people, to an extent, escape rigid gender role stereotyping. Mr. Perez Hilton maybe? Gossiping is one of the true talent that women have. But well, he aces it! His way of gossiping is very very fascinating! This proves that creativity is not about the people, it’s about their ability to think outside their mind.

8. Creative people are both rebellious and conservative. Well, the person I am going to use as the example is Madonna. Andina wrote Madonna as one of the most creative public figure in the world! And i have to agree with her! Madonna is undoubtely very very rebellious. Left home at early age, still dressed like a girl in her twenties while her age actually is 50 (am i right?), often do rebellious act (remember her kissing with britney and christina? or maybe her Like a Prayer music video where she was seen with black negro Jesus?). Interestingly, at the same time she also is a very strict conservative mother. Yes, TV is prohibited at their kids’ room. She baptized her kids. And all those mothers’ thingy.

That might be one of her trick to still be on the top of the game. I mean, she can really make ppl wonder, does motherhood change her life dramatically? And well that was the headlines for many magazines at that time. She is creative in making ppl buzzing abt her. Um well, or maybe her management. I dont know.

9. Most creative people are very passionate about their work, yet they can be extremely objective about it as well. Steve Jobs. Many of you put him as the most creative persons. Who wouldve doubted Jobs’ passion over his work huh? However he is also very objective in seeing his result. Most of the people would be very subjective of their result. They think it’s the best. That’s different from Steve Jobs.

Nih ya I’ll quote from Rafdy “Contohnya setiap generasi baru dalam laptop Macbook Pro penambahan selalu disertai oleh pengurangan spesifikasi yang dianggap kurang menguntungkan oleh Steve. Macbook Pro edisi terbaru di cabut VGA dan ditambah Spesifikasi untuk menambah kecepatan proses loading. Bukti lain bahwa steve jobs suka dengan penambahan dan pengurangan ialah I-Pod yang dulunya memiliki fitur radio pada generasi terbaru di tahun 2008 tidak ada radio’.” Hmm most of the people might deny that their product has weaknesses and try to just live with that. But Steve Jobs, he innovates and he does not shy to delete what needs to be deleted.

‚ÄúSometimes when you innovate, you make mistakes. It is best to admit them quickly, and get on with improving your other innovations.‚ÄĚ – Steve Jobs

10. Creative people‚Äôs openness and sensitivity often exposes them to suffering and pain, yet also to a great deal of enjoyment. This quality belongs to Miss Paris Hilton! Yes ushie, your pick! Actually, I dont know if she’s creative or really dumbass girl. But hell daaaamn maaaaaaan! Yes I think she’s creative… in a way hihi. Let me tell you, she does not have any talents! No no no not at all! But now she’s like this new business mogul in pink. Her openness in letting people watched her in Simple Life exposed her to suffering and pain.

Conclusion: Being creative means you have to be able to use both opposite sides of you effectively. Ah and one thing I learnt, all these people they know what they (and us) really want and able to turn it into reality


This post is dedicated to my beloved friend for these past 2years, ERICKX! (damn maaaaan! haha)

Hospitals. Since i dont know when, the fortunate people of Indonesia have always been going back and forth to Singapore or Malaysia to get medical check up or whatever. Well, it is perfectly understandable. The country’s ambiance is peaceful there, the hospital has this great service and so on and so on. But the price? Well, expensive man! We’re losing our money! But unfortunately, Indonesia Governemnt never take any action over this. WHY NOT PEOPLE??

Well,¬†my father is quite concerned about this.¬†He has this idea in his¬†mind but well.. you know..¬†just an idea. Why dont we make¬†nice international hospital in BALI?¬†In¬†I dont know..¬†Kintamani or¬†somewhere peaceful and quite.¬†(kuta is off-limit of course). We can get like HUGE¬†PROFITS from there.¬†Imagine¬†you’re in a hospital room and¬†you can see the mountain or the beach outside. It might help you getting better fast! We can sell the idea¬†like¬†“getting treatment while enjoying holiday”¬†¬†“being treated at peaceful area makes your recovery faster” or it can be the perfect hiding place for those rich ladies who undergo liposuction or whatever! The service also has to be perfect! Make a joint agreement with I dont know.. John Hopkins? Gleneagles?¬†Mayo clinic? Siapapun deh! The domino effect of this will be huge I think. They’ll fall in love with the scenery and continue their stay for holiday¬†thus bringing money for Indonesia! (Yes, me and my scenario¬†haha). I bet¬†Aussie will like this very much. We can even have singaporean and malaysian to¬†be treated there¬†(yeah..)


Ric! Make it happen! But oops.. your brother might not be fascinated by this idea. Too much bikinis huh? Hahaha

kok mirip yah?

suri cruise

suri cruise

liat yg paling kiri
liat yg paling kiri


10 things apa gitu..

I am scared of lots ordinary things.

Yes, I wont let you guys know what those things are. Just few closed friends know it. Hahaha. Curious eh?


I used to HATE Rindra.

Hahahaha! Beneran deh! Karena bokap gw was (actually also is) like so smitten with him that it made me jealous. I remember saying this to ayah, ‚ÄúAyah tu selalu manggil rindra smart boy smart boy! Sama aku ngga pernah! Ayah pilih kasih!‚ÄĚ OMG! I can‚Äôt believe I was jealous of newborn baby! That‚Äôs so lame! N my dad replied ‚Äúyauda mulai sekarang kamu ayah panggil smart girl!‚ÄĚ. Huuuh like that helps. But now I am totally in love with rindra hihihi


Ive always wanted a big brother

Well, banyak sama ya ama yg lain. I guess it is the syndrome of being the oldest daughter in the family kali ya.


Can’t resist the urge of splurging

Jarang sih but once this thingy hit me, I don’t think of anything. I just hit the shelves and end up resenting the purchase. Silly me haha.


Waxing is therapeutic

Haha. Setiap gw agak2 stress, I‚Äôll just go to the nearest salon dan di wax! Haha. Lo semua harus nyoba sensasi pas ditarik wax nya. Itu tuh lega banget kayak ‚ÄĚaaaaaaaaaah..‚ÄĚ and ur problems seem like go away for‚Ķ 2minutes haha. Ini recommended bgt!!!!! Drpd lo mabok2an, just try waxing!


I was very much in love with BRIAN MCFADDEN!

Hahaha. Gw bahkan dulu membuat collage our of his pictures in magazine! So silly! Tapi dulu gw suka banget brian dengan rambut2 jabrik2 pirangnya. Hahahaha.


IKEA dolls and Gantungan kunci boneka.

Mengoleksi boneka ikea adalah hobiku. Mulai dry g ulet bulu sampe kucing, I have it all! Haha. Theyre bright and comfy to hug. And u shud see my car! Disana tergantung berbagai jenis boneka gantungan. U name it, i have it! Madagascar? Ada! Sesame street? Ada! Kungfu panda? Ada! Hahaha.


No coffee!

Yes, my father does not allow me to drink coffe, but I love it anyway so.. Ssshhh no tell! K?


I loathe doctors and medicine

Ahauhauhauhaa bukannya gimana2 ya. Tapi I have traumatic memory with doctor! When my mom was diagnosed with tumor in her womb, I was there hearing all the conversation. N it scared the hell outta me, really.



Yes yes very addicted to jacket! Lemme count it! Yes people, I have more than 15jackets in my closet right now. Not to mention yg ada di jkt. Haha. Sorry mommy I know u hate this obsession.




hahaha udah tuuuuuuuh! terus diapain nih? ngga ngerti deh gw.. mohon penjelasannya ibu ibu.


cinderella story.

i got very very emotional that i burst into tears knowing that Obama won the election. this is not just about him being the commander in chief of US. this is a reality of cinderella story. who would have thought that black person can be the president-elect of USA? theyre black for god’s sake! the ones who had no¬†rights to vote long ago. theyre the ones who always get discriminated until now.

Obama being president is like giving a new rush of inspiration for me. i, frankly speaking, do not care about his policy watsoever since i am no american teehee! but this makes me realize that well  we can do anything! ANYTHING! YES WE CAN! this makes me believe in chances and possibilities. isnt it just perfect to tell your kids that nothing in this world is impossible? it is yes. moreover, i also think that this is very beautiful that ppl no longer judge others by their skin tones or anything else. this beautiful thing should make us realize that we should not judge others and give them benefit of the doubt cause instead. yes this is kinda funny how one thing could change the way we think maybe for forever. this election should change the way people think. this should be the inspiration for ppl all over the world.

Have you guys seen Obama’s victory speech? Well, i was overwhelmed by his speech. Really moving. i was also moved when he talked abt his grandma. That was a bittersweet victory. To win when u just lost your grandma. Huuuuuuuuu. I am so sorry for being very emotional and writing this cheesy post hihi.

And hey guys, his middle name happens to be Hussein. It is Barrack Hussein Obama. So do u guys think there will be a great chance to get US visa easier for those who have arabian style name? haha! well, lets have our fingers crossed amien!

Maybe I’ll write email again to white house. But this time will be different. Instead of begging for Iraq, I’d like to send them thank you note for Mr. Bush¬†that he¬†eventually will leave the white house and congrats them to have new president.¬†

US is ready for a change.¬†Are we, Indonesia, ready for a change? ¬†That’s our HW!

Well, congratulations President Obama! Hope u can do good! Me’s signing off.

From the heart

Hiya all. Been a long time since last I’ve blogged. Anyway, things have been so shitty and I think I’ve to step up my game. The thing is… My power level is decreasing more and more each day. Do u guys feel the same? Have tips to boost our level of resistance? Never thought this would be this exhausting. And to make it worse, there are ppl who actually enjoy seeing other ppl well.. I don’t know.. Suffer? I hate you! Thx for making my life miserable. What is ur problem huh? Is this ur way to relieve urself from old bad memory you experienced? Or this is a mere example of inhumane human-being? Well, whatever you are, I pray to God you’ll have your heart more human-y and actually have feelings. GBU cyborg.